Ep 15 - This Time of Year
In this episode I talk about how I used to be a grinch around the holidays, how I felt guilty for not doing something special on the...
Aloha and Welcome
I am a widowed mom in Hawaii just trying to get it all right. This is an honest and sometimes inappropriate look at real life.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways." - Glennon Doyle Melton
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suzannedenigris
- Nov 20
- 5 min
Maybe I Should Have
Maybe I should have heard you when you said you had to go. That we fell out of love. That you had to do what was best for you. Maybe I...
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suzannedenigris
- Nov 19
- 2 min
Ep 14 - Hot Mess Express
In this episode I talk about how when I use terms like hot mess to describe myself it makes me feel awful, how I've learned that we tell...
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suzannedenigris
- Nov 12
- 2 min
Ep 13 - Grief Grenade
In this episode I talk about how sadness is fairly new for me in this journey, how anger is a disguise for what is hiding below the...
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suzannedenigris
- Nov 6
- 5 min
Who Am I Now?
Before my husband died, he seemed a bit confused about what he wanted. He announced that he was leaving. He said it would be good for us...
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suzannedenigris
- Nov 5
- 2 min
Ep 12 - No.
In this episode I talk about how I was conditioned to be good and to behave and to not ask for too much, how I recognize that people...
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suzannedenigris
- Oct 29
- 2 min
Ep 11 - Flying Solo
In this episode I talk about how the gravity of being solely responsible for my son hit me hard, how there is nobody walking through my...
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suzannedenigris
- Oct 23
- 5 min
It's Not So Bad
I think it's important, especially in the face of tragedy, to find gratitude. I'm not talking about toxic positivity or wishful thinking....
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suzannedenigris
- Oct 22
- 2 min
Ep 10 - Fear of Happiness
In this episode I talk about how I started having random pain and other symptoms after my husband died, how maybe it's safer to play...
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suzannedenigris
- Oct 15
- 2 min
Ep 9 - When Your Baby Is Hurting
In this episode I talk about how my son's grief started showing up as rage and frustration and tears, how I worried that because my...
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suzannedenigris
- Oct 9
- 5 min
Why Don't You Just...
There was a time not long ago, after my husband died, that I couldn't even be a good friend. I couldn't reciprocate the kindness and...
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suzannedenigris
- Oct 8
- 2 min
Ep 8 - #anxiety
In this episode I talk about how I don't think anxiety was even a thing growing up in the seventies, how my husband leaving me triggered...
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suzannedenigris
- Oct 1
- 1 min
Ep 7 - How Are You?
In this episode I talk about how the three little words "how are you" can be so complicated, how I didn't want anyone to think I was too...
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suzannedenigris
- Sep 25
- 5 min
When The Sadness Comes
In the first year after my husband died, there were too many different emotions to keep track. There was shock and disbelief. There was...
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suzannedenigris
- Sep 24
- 1 min
Ep 6 - How I Accidentally Quit Drinking
In this episode I talk about why I was drinking and how alcohol started to consume so much space, misconceptions about what an alcoholic...
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suzannedenigris
- Sep 17
- 1 min
Ep 5 - Am I Healing or Just Hiding?
In this episode I talk about watching a family video from before my husband died, how I struggle with finding a balance between what...
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suzannedenigris
- Sep 11
- 7 min
The Truth
The truth is, feelings scare the shit out of me. I've worked with a life coach to learn how to allow the feelings to come. I've learned...
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suzannedenigris
- Sep 10
- 1 min
Ep 4 - Other Widows Don't Feel This Way
In this episode I talk about how isolating grief can be, how resisting my emotions would result in panic attacks and how much I relate to...
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suzannedenigris
- Sep 3
- 1 min
Ep 3 - Survival Mode
In this episode, I talk about how I never really learned to trust myself, deciding who I want to be now that my husband is gone and how I...
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suzannedenigris
- Aug 28
- 5 min
The Reason Why
Whenever I find myself in a conversation with someone who doesn't know me, or hasn't heard my story yet, I suddenly become socially...
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