The Reason Why
Whenever I find myself in a conversation with someone who doesn't know me, or hasn't heard my story yet, I suddenly become socially...
Aloha and Welcome
I am a widowed mom in Hawaii just trying to get it all right. This is an honest and sometimes inappropriate look at real life.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways." - Glennon Doyle Melton
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suzannedenigris
- Aug 25, 2021
- 1 min
Ep 2 - The "S" Word
In this episode, I talk about the stigma around suicide, how I respond when someone asks me how my husband died and how I was able to...
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suzannedenigris
- Aug 21, 2021
- 1 min
Ep 1 - My Widow Story
In this episode I talk about how my husband and I met, common misconceptions about addiction and alcoholism, the events leading up to...
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suzannedenigris
- Aug 14, 2021
- 7 min
The Story I Choose To Tell
Immediately following my husband's suicide, I sought out therapy. I was in shock and I knew I needed help right away. I contacted a group...
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suzannedenigris
- Jul 31, 2021
- 7 min
To All The Widows, I See You
To The Young Widow, I see you. Maybe you had your whole lives ahead of you and now everything has changed. Maybe nobody can believe you...
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suzannedenigris
- Jul 17, 2021
- 5 min
Pandora's Box
If you would have asked me about grief before my husband died, I would have guessed it looked like gut wrenching sadness. An endless...
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suzannedenigris
- Jul 3, 2021
- 5 min
Trigger Warning
I first learned the term Trigger Warning on social media. I'm sure I had heard it before but I came to understand the meaning in a closed...
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suzannedenigris
- Jun 19, 2021
- 5 min
Dear Brian,
Father's Day is here but you're not. Just when I think we have escaped the constant reminders of your absence, the biggest bomb of all is...
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suzannedenigris
- Jun 5, 2021
- 6 min
Survival Mode
In my previous life, I used to fill every waking moment with productivity. I would pile as much as humanly possible onto my plate and...
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suzannedenigris
- May 22, 2021
- 7 min
Even In Paradise
I'll never forget the day my best friend returned to L.A. from her vacation to Maui. She was practically gushing. She talked about the...
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suzannedenigris
- May 8, 2021
- 6 min
Year Two
When I found out my husband died by suicide, I was absolutely devastated. Although there were signs that I can see clearly now, I didn't...
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suzannedenigris
- Apr 24, 2021
- 6 min
When Your Baby is Hurting
It's one thing to experience the heart wrenching pain of grief yourself, but to stand by and helplessly watch your child's heart ache is...
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suzannedenigris
- Apr 10, 2021
- 5 min
How Are You?
When my husband passed away, it seemed like every time I turned around someone was asking me how I was. Gawd. I despised that question....
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suzannedenigris
- Mar 27, 2021
- 7 min
The "S" Word
I knew he was gone before I even made the call. There was a nagging feeling I had deep in my belly that I had been pushing away all day....
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suzannedenigris
- Mar 13, 2021
- 6 min
What Would People Think?
I used to care deeply what other people thought of me until I realized the one judging me was me. If I told people about my childhood...
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suzannedenigris
- Feb 26, 2021
- 5 min
What Would Love Do?
Love would speak to me in a gentle voice. Love would show me grace. Love would comfort me and tell me everything is going to be okay....
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suzannedenigris
- Feb 13, 2021
- 5 min
Does That Make Me Crazy?
I'm afraid of the dark. I need to be in control. I can't bear the thought of hurting someone's feelings. I talk to myself. I go out of my...
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suzannedenigris
- Jan 30, 2021
- 7 min
If This Were Real Life...
If this were real life, I would be spending my days being productive and crushing goals. I would be scrubbing toilets, mopping floors and...
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suzannedenigris
- Jan 16, 2021
- 6 min
Other Widows Don't Feel This Way
So there I was, standing in my garage with my late husband's car, losing all of my shit. As I emptied the contents into a garbage bag,...
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suzannedenigris
- Jan 2, 2021
- 6 min
How I Accidentally Quit Drinking
You ready for this? Brace yourself. I'm not sure you're going to believe me but here goes. About a year ago I had my very last drink....
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