Ep 20 - The Affair
In this episode I talk about how after I found out my husband died I would ruminate on all the things I should have done, how I found out...
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I am a widowed mom in Hawaii just trying to get it all right. This is an honest and sometimes inappropriate look at real life.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways." - Glennon Doyle Melton
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suzannedenigris
- Dec 24, 2021
- 2 min
Ep 19 - What If
In this episode I talk about how I always know when I'm ready to do something big and daring and bold when the thought of it puts a huge...
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suzannedenigris
- Dec 17, 2021
- 5 min
Is This Normal?
Until now, I've had very little experience with loss. I say this even though my mother died when I was twenty three. We had a strained...
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suzannedenigris
- Dec 17, 2021
- 2 min
Ep 18 - Unconditional Self Love
In this episode I talk about how I don't always understand why I feel the way I do, how I spent my entire life not feeling my feelings...
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suzannedenigris
- Dec 10, 2021
- 2 min
Ep 17 - Mean Girl
In this episode I talk about how I grew up in a society that saw self-confidence as bitchiness and self love as arrogance, how hearing...
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suzannedenigris
- Dec 3, 2021
- 5 min
A Day To Remember
My friend and I were talking on the phone about life and self coaching and managing our minds when said, “I know this time of year is...
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suzannedenigris
- Dec 3, 2021
- 2 min
Ep 16 - What Not To Say
In this episode I talk about how when my husband died people seemed to have an awful lot of advice, how there are no perfect words to say...
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suzannedenigris
- Nov 26, 2021
- 2 min
Ep 15 - This Time of Year
In this episode I talk about how I used to be a grinch around the holidays, how I felt guilty for not doing something special on the...
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suzannedenigris
- Nov 19, 2021
- 5 min
Maybe I Should Have
Maybe I should have heard you when you said you had to go. That we fell out of love. That you had to do what was best for you. Maybe I...
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suzannedenigris
- Nov 19, 2021
- 2 min
Ep 14 - Hot Mess Express
In this episode I talk about how when I use terms like hot mess to describe myself it makes me feel awful, how I've learned that we tell...
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suzannedenigris
- Nov 12, 2021
- 2 min
Ep 13 - Grief Grenade
In this episode I talk about how sadness is fairly new for me in this journey, how anger is a disguise for what is hiding below the...
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suzannedenigris
- Nov 5, 2021
- 5 min
Who Am I Now?
Before my husband died, he seemed a bit confused about what he wanted. He announced that he was leaving. He said it would be good for us...
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suzannedenigris
- Nov 5, 2021
- 2 min
Ep 12 - No.
In this episode I talk about how I was conditioned to be good and to behave and to not ask for too much, how I recognize that people...
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suzannedenigris
- Oct 29, 2021
- 2 min
Ep 11 - Flying Solo
In this episode I talk about how the gravity of being solely responsible for my son hit me hard, how there is nobody walking through my...
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suzannedenigris
- Oct 22, 2021
- 5 min
It's Not So Bad
I think it's important, especially in the face of tragedy, to find gratitude. I'm not talking about toxic positivity or wishful thinking....
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suzannedenigris
- Oct 22, 2021
- 2 min
Ep 10 - Fear of Happiness
In this episode I talk about how I started having random pain and other symptoms after my husband died, how maybe it's safer to play...
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suzannedenigris
- Oct 15, 2021
- 2 min
Ep 9 - When Your Baby Is Hurting
In this episode I talk about how my son's grief started showing up as rage and frustration and tears, how I worried that because my...
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suzannedenigris
- Oct 8, 2021
- 5 min
Why Don't You Just...
There was a time not long ago, after my husband died, that I couldn't even be a good friend. I couldn't reciprocate the kindness and...
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suzannedenigris
- Oct 8, 2021
- 2 min
Ep 8 - #anxiety
In this episode I talk about how I don't think anxiety was even a thing growing up in the seventies, how my husband leaving me triggered...
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suzannedenigris
- Oct 1, 2021
- 1 min
Ep 7 - How Are You?
In this episode I talk about how the three little words "how are you" can be so complicated, how I didn't want anyone to think I was too...
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