When The Sadness Comes
In the first year after my husband died, there were too many different emotions to keep track. There was shock and disbelief. There was...
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I am a widowed mom in Hawaii just trying to get it all right. This is an honest and sometimes inappropriate look at real life.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways." - Glennon Doyle Melton
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suzannedenigris
- Sep 24, 2021
- 1 min
Ep 6 - How I Accidentally Quit Drinking
In this episode I talk about why I was drinking and how alcohol started to consume so much space, misconceptions about what an alcoholic...
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suzannedenigris
- Sep 17, 2021
- 1 min
Ep 5 - Am I Healing or Just Hiding?
In this episode I talk about watching a family video from before my husband died, how I struggle with finding a balance between what...
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suzannedenigris
- Sep 10, 2021
- 7 min
The Truth
The truth is, feelings scare the shit out of me. I've worked with a life coach to learn how to allow the feelings to come. I've learned...
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suzannedenigris
- Sep 10, 2021
- 1 min
Ep 4 - Other Widows Don't Feel This Way
In this episode I talk about how isolating grief can be, how resisting my emotions would result in panic attacks and how much I relate to...
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suzannedenigris
- Sep 3, 2021
- 1 min
Ep 3 - Survival Mode
In this episode, I talk about how I never really learned to trust myself, deciding who I want to be now that my husband is gone and how I...
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suzannedenigris
- Aug 27, 2021
- 5 min
The Reason Why
Whenever I find myself in a conversation with someone who doesn't know me, or hasn't heard my story yet, I suddenly become socially...
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suzannedenigris
- Aug 24, 2021
- 1 min
Ep 2 - The "S" Word
In this episode, I talk about the stigma around suicide, how I respond when someone asks me how my husband died and how I was able to...
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suzannedenigris
- Aug 20, 2021
- 1 min
Ep 1 - My Widow Story
In this episode I talk about how my husband and I met, common misconceptions about addiction and alcoholism, the events leading up to...
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suzannedenigris
- Aug 13, 2021
- 7 min
The Story I Choose To Tell
Immediately following my husband's suicide, I sought out therapy. I was in shock and I knew I needed help right away. I contacted a group...
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suzannedenigris
- Jul 30, 2021
- 7 min
To All The Widows, I See You
To The Young Widow, I see you. Maybe you had your whole lives ahead of you and now everything has changed. Maybe nobody can believe you...
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suzannedenigris
- Jul 16, 2021
- 5 min
Pandora's Box
If you would have asked me about grief before my husband died, I would have guessed it looked like gut wrenching sadness. An endless...
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suzannedenigris
- Jul 2, 2021
- 5 min
Trigger Warning
I first learned the term Trigger Warning on social media. I'm sure I had heard it before but I came to understand the meaning in a closed...
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suzannedenigris
- Jun 18, 2021
- 5 min
Dear Brian,
Father's Day is here but you're not. Just when I think we have escaped the constant reminders of your absence, the biggest bomb of all is...
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suzannedenigris
- Jun 4, 2021
- 6 min
Survival Mode
In my previous life, I used to fill every waking moment with productivity. I would pile as much as humanly possible onto my plate and...
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suzannedenigris
- May 21, 2021
- 7 min
Even In Paradise
I'll never forget the day my best friend returned to L.A. from her vacation to Maui. She was practically gushing. She talked about the...
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suzannedenigris
- May 7, 2021
- 6 min
Year Two
When I found out my husband died by suicide, I was absolutely devastated. Although there were signs that I can see clearly now, I didn't...
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suzannedenigris
- Apr 23, 2021
- 6 min
When Your Baby is Hurting
It's one thing to experience the heart wrenching pain of grief yourself, but to stand by and helplessly watch your child's heart ache is...
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suzannedenigris
- Apr 9, 2021
- 5 min
How Are You?
When my husband passed away, it seemed like every time I turned around someone was asking me how I was. Gawd. I despised that question....
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suzannedenigris
- Mar 26, 2021
- 7 min
The "S" Word
I knew he was gone before I even made the call. There was a nagging feeling I had deep in my belly that I had been pushing away all day....
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