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When my husband passed away, it seemed like every time I turned around someone was asking me how I was. Gawd. I despised that question....
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I am a widowed mom in Hawaii just trying to get it all right. This is an honest and sometimes inappropriate look at real life.
"Be messy and complicated and afraid and show up anyways." - Glennon Doyle Melton
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suzannedenigris
- Mar 26, 2021
- 7 min
The "S" Word
I knew he was gone before I even made the call. There was a nagging feeling I had deep in my belly that I had been pushing away all day....
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suzannedenigris
- Mar 12, 2021
- 6 min
What Would People Think?
I used to care deeply what other people thought of me until I realized the one judging me was me. If I told people about my childhood...
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suzannedenigris
- Feb 26, 2021
- 5 min
What Would Love Do?
Love would speak to me in a gentle voice. Love would show me grace. Love would comfort me and tell me everything is going to be okay....
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suzannedenigris
- Feb 13, 2021
- 5 min
Does That Make Me Crazy?
I'm afraid of the dark. I need to be in control. I can't bear the thought of hurting someone's feelings. I talk to myself. I go out of my...
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suzannedenigris
- Jan 30, 2021
- 7 min
If This Were Real Life...
If this were real life, I would be spending my days being productive and crushing goals. I would be scrubbing toilets, mopping floors and...
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suzannedenigris
- Jan 16, 2021
- 6 min
Other Widows Don't Feel This Way
So there I was, standing in my garage with my late husband's car, losing all of my shit. As I emptied the contents into a garbage bag,...
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suzannedenigris
- Jan 2, 2021
- 6 min
How I Accidentally Quit Drinking
You ready for this? Brace yourself. I'm not sure you're going to believe me but here goes. About a year ago I had my very last drink....
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suzannedenigris
- Dec 18, 2020
- 5 min
Becoming My Own Cheerleader
What if I spoke to myself the way I speak to my best friend? You know that little voice inside your head? The one that's so mean. Yeah,...
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suzannedenigris
- Dec 4, 2020
- 5 min
What My Anxiety Looks Like
"It's a beautiful day out today," I said. "We should go for a walk." "No, thanks," she said without looking at me. "C'mon. The fresh air...
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suzannedenigris
- Nov 20, 2020
- 5 min
Sorry Not Sorry
It took a tragedy to feel like I had a valid reason to say no. One of the most cringeworthy phrases I've heard yet is "no is a complete...
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suzannedenigris
- Nov 6, 2020
- 5 min
I'm Not Single; I Am Solo
I used to think the worst title I could hold was single mom. Then I became a widow. For practically all of my life, I've always known I...
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suzannedenigris
- Oct 24, 2020
- 5 min
Self Care: Because I Said So
If you would have asked me a few years ago about my self care routine, I probably would have rolled my eyes and laughed hysterically. I...
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suzannedenigris
- Oct 8, 2020
- 6 min
My Mean Girl Inner Critic
As I locked up my bike and walked up the front steps, I thought to myself maybe this won't totally suck. It can't possibly be as bad as...
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suzannedenigris
- Sep 18, 2020
- 3 min
Letter From My Future Self
Close your eyes and imagine your future self. The one that has weathered this storm and is steady now. Think of the best version of you. ...
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suzannedenigris
- Sep 7, 2020
- 6 min
Random Ways to Survive a Loss
It's crazy how you can be spinning through life at warp speed, minding your own business, and then tragedy strikes. Time just suddenly...
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