Ep 3 - Survival Mode
In this episode, I talk about how I never really learned to trust myself, deciding who I want to be now that my husband is gone and how I make myself a priority to show myself that I matter. I also share my blog post, Survival Mode.
For a long time I was waiting for grief to be over so I could get back to my old self. I was wondering why that wasn't happening or what was taking so long. I think I assumed I wasn't healing because I wasn't keeping up the same pace that I used to. For me, there's no going back. I am in no way the same person I was. The truth is, I like this new way of life. The slow pace, the self care, the not caring about every little detail. So it's not that I'm not healing, it's that I'm choosing a different path.
Life is always going to be Survival Mode. It's always going to have its challenges. It will always be hard and there will never be enough hours in the day. So how do I want to prioritize my time? Do I want to scramble through every day trying to get it all done, telling myself I'm a piece of shit for not doing enough? Or do I want to take care of myself.