Ep 36 - Epiphany
In this episode I talk about how resistance is my go to response in most situations, how I've noticed my son's anxiety showing up more and how it's easy to be a parent but to be a good parent is so hard.
My therapist and I have been working on concepts of mindfulness, which I always thought meant being kind and thoughtful to others. Mindfulness is actually the ability to be fully present, aware of where we are and what we’re doing and not be overly reactive or overwhelmed by what’s going on around us. So, related to that, we’ve also been talking a lot about resistance. Making situations even more challenging or painful by arguing with reality. I didn’t even realize that resistance is my go-to response in most situations.
I’ve noticed his anxiety showing up even more recently. And I’ve been trying my best to navigate through it. I’m trying to find a middle ground between working with it and letting it rule our lives. Because I know that if I coddle him too much and make excuses for him the real world is going to be a slap in the face.
It’s easy to be a parent. Make all the snacks, drop him off at school, teach him a couple things along the way. But to be a good parent, to be focused and present and always keeping his best interest in mind, that is so fucking hard.