Ep 38 - Hot and Bothered
In this episode I talk about how I am so tired of being treated like I don't matter, how I learned that if I am angry or frustrated or outraged something is wrong but not with me and how I am human and humans make mistakes.
He didn’t show. No call. No email. No explanation or attempt to reschedule. And I was pissed. He just blew me off. Like I wasn’t even important. And I am so tired of being treated like I don’t matter. Like I’m not a priority. Like I’m less than.
I’m sure I’ve said this before but girls are taught, or at least I was taught, to be good. To be nice and sweet and caring. To be quiet. To not raise my voice. To not rock the boat. To not fuss. And that to be angry is bad. And if I am feeling angry or frustrated or outraged that something is wrong. But I realized in what she was teaching me was that it DOES mean something is wrong. But not there is something wrong with ME. That my body is making me aware of something that isn’t right and that I have a choice.
I felt so stupid. It took a couple days to comfort and remind myself that I am human. And humans make mistakes. Luckily, I didn’t throw the toddler tantrum that I wanted to or say any of the things out loud that were on my mind. And, if anything, there’s always a lesson to be learned.