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Ep 5 - Am I Healing or Just Hiding?



In this episode I talk about watching a family video from before my husband died, how I struggle with finding a balance between what feels like self care and what feels like avoiding my life, and the judgement I was having for myself for needing to rest.


I just stared at my phone unable to even imagine functioning the next day. All I wanted to do was to crawl under the covers and hide. But here's the thing I struggle with finding a balance between what feels like self care and what feels like avoiding my life. Kind of like when you grab your phone to mentally check out for a minute and the next thing you know and hour has gone by.


Instead of giving myself permission to rest, I was making myself feel like shit. I was giving myself guilt instead of love. Somewhere along the way I picked up the belief that needing rest makes me lazy or weak or depressed. So Instead of allowing myself to relax I was making myself feel worse about it.


I've learned theres is a difference between what makes me feel rejuvenated and what just helps me ignore all the shit I'll still have to do after sitting in front of the TV.




Listen to the full episode here:


My Messy Little Life Podcast Ep 5 - Am I Healing or Just Hiding?

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